18 april 2011
today i din go to work =(
because my stomach keep feeling unwell T.T
haix....what happen??
i really suffer alot...that medicine seems no use to me =(
i almost eat 5 tablet yesterday,but??
still very hard to breath,i dunno izit gastric make dao me like that?? =(
anyone can help me??? hmmmp
last night he play ball till very late..
hmm,then he din told whether today we out or not..
but i already guess dao awal awal that today we wont out together..
because i already say kan that his competition important than me,then confirm
he sure forget wan to tell me that we cannot out today =(
nevermind bar,because i already know the answer before he told me..
hmmmmp..
i dunno want to use what excuse to ask him out with me..
my mind was empty,,i really dunno want how already..
last nite he din send good nite message to me again,
hmm,,maybe for him,send a message was very hard,,
nevermind bar,because i lazy wan ngam him again,,
ngam also no used lerrr =(
but he 5.30am send a morning message to me..
he ok ka? 5.30am he not yet sleep?? @@
then about 7am i replied him,but i memang know that maybe he sleep liao..hmm
9.30am he call me,but i din answer it,because i'm sleeping ..
why he call me?? got anything he wan tell me??
i'm wondering what he wan say.. hmmmm
about 4.15pm i call him,
he say he just wake up...
then he told me that he 5 something then go home,,
he say that he din call me,he just bu xiao xing press dao..><
hmm..we talk hp not more than 5min,
he say wan wash face..after that i jiu call his phone liao..
i sms him and ask him to find me after he done all his thing..
i keep wait him to find me..
i want to sleep,but i scare later he suddenly find me..
but..till 6.45pm he still din find me..
then i jiu sms him,,
he say wait,,he angry now ><
then about 7.17pm he ask me to call him..
he told me everything about his thing..
i told him that dun keep no mood,if not i help bu dao u,,but u know what he say??
he say i din say i wan ur help ...
OMG!! do u know i got how sad when he say like that?
my heart really hurt dao like hell man!! =(
haix...i feel that i'm useless,everything i cant do for him..
i'm a sucks gf..i know that !!
we quarrel again today =(
haix..i already dun wan this thing ever happen again,but?
maybe really all is my fault,i only want to help him,but when i more help,he more fan =(
I'M USELESS =(
i just want him say "ai ni" that word to me 1st..
because i wan him sweet sweet to me,,but?
he terus nget sai me,he say that i always wan him to say 1st..
haix..the reason i want him say 1st because i wan know his heart got me or not..unfortunally,
he cant get what i mean..=( haix...
he say that next time he wont say to me again,and if i say to him 1st then he will answer me fast fast then say close my call =(
say the true,the reason i dun want say 1st because i dun want close his call,
we really long time din talk handphone liao,the most long we ever talk is 12 minute only.=(
haix...try u imagine 1 day only talk hp 2 or 3 times? but each call only 12 min?
i only just need his care =( haix...
but he cannot get what i mean T____T
i really got jiang fan to him??
i really cant help him do anything??
izit i really disturb his life??
maybe all it's true..
i already try my best not to control him like before,,
but?? he seems din realised that...
haix i really dunno want how already,,
every night i wait him,but,he always play ball dao very late.. =(
he know that i'm waiting him everyday ka ??
day pass day by day..
each day the sick become more pain and pain..
my sick really very treble liao..
everyday also got gastric =(
hmm..maybe wan die liao lor... T__T
how??? i eat many type of medicine liao..
seems no used also haixxxxx....
GASTRIC MAKE ME MORE SUFFER =(
I HATE GASTRIC..