27 april 2011

I SHOULD GIVE UP RIGHT??

maybe it's time for me to let him do anything that he like..
he want how jiu how..
i cant keep control him and force my self to tahan the way he treat me..
i should let him go..
i should become my self...

maybe it's true i'm not mature enough..
maybe i still young,i dunno what love means..
maybe we two no faith..

from yesterday till now my mind still think about the girl blog..
i cannot forget every of her word..
for me,everything was true..
now then i realised i cant fight with her..
10 months de memories is stronger then 3 months memories..
she was right,not everyone can forget 10 months memories..
so do I..
I also cant forget our 3months memories..
people told me that it's just 3months,nothing much,,
but for me..??
he the most longer guy that i ever been together..
every nite,when i sleep i sure think why he want treat me like that?
izit i not good enough?

maybe i not good as his ex..
his ex really treat him very good,,
when he sick,she will send medicine for him,,
when he hungry,she will tapao for him..
when he got problem,she will help him to settle it..
but me??

when he sick,i only can say take care to him,,
when he hungry,i only can ask him to cook his self..
when he got problem,i'm the last person who know it,,and he never told me his problem..
maybe i'm a troublemaker =(
i cant help him solve anything..

The only thing i know to do is find thing to quarrel with him..

I'm useless right?
i know now he busy about his competition de thing..
but...i just need him to pei me when he were free...
aiks...he got time to go cc,but no time to talk phone with me =(
maybe i too boring for him liao?? ><
i dunno orh..feel so fan about this thing...T____T

i keep think about yesterday the thing..
i really dunno he lying me or not...
haix,,,
but i hope he not lying..
i just want he to tell me everything..I....
I WONT BLAME HIM...
I JUST WAN TO KNOW HE REALITY...
PLEASE,,CAN ANY ONE TELL ME??
WHAT I NEED TO DO THEN I CAN TRUST ON HIM AGAIN? =(
I CANT KEEP FORCE MY SELF TO THINK THAT HE DINT LIE AT ME ...
I REALLY FEEL SO SUFFER HAIX...=(


tomorrow he going to attend his competition jor..
hope he can win!!
if no win then dont call me belinda again orhhh!!!
GAMBATEH DEAR <3

"JIA YOU JIA YOU" IF WAN GET UR PRESENT!! =)


please dont lie me...=( i just wan to know the truth..please =(