28 april 2011
WHAT A SUFFER DAY ='(last nite,tough nearly want die jor...><
headache,stomach pain,gastric and can't breath @@
gila...suddenly all sick came ><my mum told me,maybe i lack of blood..hmmm.maybe??
oh ya!! and i keep think dao one thing!!that thing keep appear in my mind!! SHIT!!! I really hate that thing!!
what i need to do so that i can stop thinking of it??
i had ask him one more time..
i know i should not ask him yesterday..but i cant stop mt self to luan luan think..the last answer he told me was,he really dint find the girl..
haix... if u are me,will you believe on him???i'm trying to believe him,,but,,
when i wish to trust him,i feel very hard to breath..
it's seems like i'm forcing my self to believe him..
maybe he's really lying me??
feels that i'm stupid,,
because...... 1.I miss him fastly even after I meet him
2.I think of him before I sleep
3.when I wake up,I think of him
4.When he smile at me ,my heart beat faster
5.when I listen to a love/slow song and I WILL think of him
6.I WILL read again and again his text conversation many times
7.When me and him together,sometimes I become nervous/shy and I don't want the time to end.
8.I smile when I hear message tone, receive a message and hope,its him
9.I've forgotten MY ex
10.I want to have same interest with him
11.I cant stay mad at him for more than a minute or two.Actually I try hard to stay mad.
12.I'll walk really slow when I'm with him
13.When he call or just listen to his voice I will smile suddenly
14.When I look at him I cant see other people surrounding me.I only see him
15.I'll will smile by the smell of his perfume
16.I realize that I'll smile to my self whenever I think of him
17. I write this because he is in my mind whole time!
izit i'm not good enough?
maybe i'm not perfect...
maybe i should not become my self..
maybe i should change to other people @@
actually i'm just a simple girl..
the only thing i want from him is,,
i hope that he can remember me always,
when he were boring,dint do anything,play ball or play game..
izit hard to keep remember me? =(
i so wish that he can find me every minute of the time
i so wish that he can find me whenever he dint do anything.
i so wish that he told me when he want to go to a place
i so wish that he told me that he want sleep so that i wont wait his message..
i so wish that he can pei me sms and always talk phone with me
i so wish that everyday he can say he miss me that word..
i so wish that i can hug him one more time..
i so wish that he can care me every minute,,
i dont want he only care me when i'm sick that time ='(
but everything i think i cant get it again..
it's too late..i need go study already and now he keep busy his basketball.. ='(
i keep feels that he slowly forget me already and,,,
only know to do his thing and very late then find me..
i'm not important already ...
he always busy fetch his sister,sleep,play ball and play game..
hmmm then me ler??
in your heart i'm number what??
maybe last?? or maybe i dint place in your heart?
he really change a lot..
maybe every guy was the same,,
when want chase a girl they will treat her very good,
but when together liao they will show their truly face..izit all like that??
say the true i really miss last time de him..
i miss the way he hug me..
i miss the way he talk to me...
i miss the way he hold my hand..
i miss every word he told me..
i miss the time we had out together..
i miss the way he kiss me..
for me..now everything had gone..
maybe he change already ='(
♥ Belinda Lee Jia Ling ♥.
Hello ♥ Nice to meet you all :D 
