14 april 2011

today was the 3rd day after the day we break..
after that day we break,i never had a good sleep..
i really suffer a lot,,
every nite before i sleep i sure think again,
why he wan like that??

this three days i keep dream dao nightmare.
i really very scare,
i scare he suddenly say he dun wan me back T_____T
i hate those feeling,,
i hope this thing can fast fast end..
i hope he can accept me back..
i know everything was my fault.
i maybe it's really too late i say like that,but i really regret a lot =(

I REALLY SUFFER!!!
AND I REALLY SCARE,,

today was the 3rd day i din eat my lunch and dinner..
i cant eat,when i saw food i no mood to eat.
my mind now only think dao him =(

today in the morning,my gastric came again,
but i just ignore it.
i din eat medicine and din drink water.
i just feel that when i'm like this more good,,
because i'm bad,and i should make my self suffer..
because of my one word i make dao our relation like this =(
better gastric dao die bar,i wont regret of dying now..
because at the moment the only thing i regret was the word i told him =(
sorry for the everything..


i want to sleep and forget everything!!
but i cant...=(
when i close my eyes i sure think dao him..
then when i'm fall in sleep i sure had a bad dream..
i really scare,i really suffer..
i suffer dao cant breath T____T
how can i stop thinking of him?
i think maybe that time i die already..
so hope that i can disappear in this world,and everything will end =(

haix...
today morning,i message him..
i ask him,izit his competition important then our relation?
until he willing to leave me awhile and concentrate on his competition..=(
i know that competition important to him,
but i promise that i wont force dear to do anything.
i told him that i'm suffer and i need him.
and i wont control him anymore,he wan do what i just let it.
i just want we can like last time,
happy and sad together..
without him i really cant life..=(

i dunno he trust or not??
but i hope he trusted on me..
no one know how i feel in this moment.
i really hope that he can understand me and give me a 2nd chance..
i beg him for the 2nd times already..
i'm serious in our relationship,
i dun wish that we just end it like that..
please..please please please please

if u (dear) saw my blog,i hope that u (dear) will understand my feeling..