should i give up??


i really gonna crazy soon,,
i dunno wan how liao..
keep think dao him..
my mind really full of him...

morning i sms him,and ask him to give my the 2nd chance..
but he din reply..
what does it mean? he really wan end it like that??
i think so...maybe i'm not important to him again..
then about 5pm i find him and ask him why he dint reply?
he say he busy..then i'm ok with it..

the only thing i can do is waiting his answer..
i really dunno wan how now..
cant eat,cant sleep,cant laugh..hmmp
why my life so pity??
he wont know how sad i'm,maybe for him is nothing..

i think i should give up everything??
i really suffer a lot..
already two days i dint eat..
hmm..i dun have the mood to eat..
many of my friends ngam me and ask me to eat,,
but?? i cant..

about 7pm something i find him back..
he say he was sleeping..
then i'm ok with it..
i ask him back again,what was his decision?
i keep ask him to give me chance.
but he say he wan rest a while,then he wan concentrate on his competition..
=( when i he end to me like that my tears really fall down,
but i just force my self to stop it.
i cant cry,i must become more brave!!

but,??
something miracle happen..
at nite about 9.30 something,
he suddenly ask me to call him..
that time i really happy alot..
i dunno what he need..
i dunno izit he want accept me back or not??

but thanks god..i really happy a lot..
he really find me back..

thanks for finding me back..=(
i really appreciate it alot..

today the whole day i din eat..
at nite my gastric suddenly come..
make dao me cannot breath and hard to sleep =(
i hate gastric..=(
hope tomorrow will good back T___T