22 April 2011

I really gonna crazy soon
i'm wondering why my gastric cannot gone?? =(
i already eat medicine for one week already,but still de same..
haix...
it really make me very hard to breath =(
and make me feels wan to vomit..
today i had vomit two times T____T
suffer and tireddd haixx...

WHy my life so pity?
I had to fan about my gastric then i also had to fan about him also..@@
the think that i fan about him is,i dunno wan to believe his word or not..haix..
DO u know got how suffer when u are start trying to believe the people but the people keep tells lies?
then u wan me how??
i really hope that every of his word was true =( hmmm

last nite,he almost 12 am something then find me..
that time i not yet sleep,coz wan to try wait him..
i tot we can talk hp very long...but unfortunally,,
we just talk a while..
he say he want go home already and ask me to sleep..
in my mind,i sure know that he wont jiang early go home..
i know he sure will go yam cha with friend or go cyber..
i not angry him because he go yamcha or go cyber..
is,,i'm angry because he lie me.
he say he wan go home,,but??
did he go home?? he 5.50am something then sms and tell me that he ngam ngam reach home..
that means,from the time he close my call he dint go home..right?
then why he want say to me that he wan go home? ==

izit talk handphone with me very hard?
izit i very fan to him?
maybe all i say was true.. right??

last nite i ngamngam think dao one thing..
that is,,he told me that he need to fetch her sister go tuition kan?
then that means he always about 1pm sure will wake up lor..kan??
then why everyday he need about 4pm something then find me?? ==
i really got jiang not important to him?? maybe right?!!
i agree too =)
I'M NOT IMPORTANT FOR HIM..

THANKS..I KNOW I'M JUST A TOY.. =)

this few days i keep think and think..
maybe i always fan his life,,
maybe i'm the one who keep disturbing him to do his thing..
maybe i too control him?

i already try my best to change,but??
he never change,i tot after he read my blog he will know what i really need,but?
he seems feel nothing for him..
maybe for him,every of my word was write shuang only..
hmmmm i really dunno want how already,, ='(

today i saw his facebook status..
the status write.." i wan watch movie.who can acc me? "
try u guys imagine if ur lover write like this,when they dint out with u today?
u all sure luan luan think that,maybe he dont wan out with us,but only wan out with his friend?
izit true??
then i jui sms him and ngam him..
but do u know what he say?
he say that status not he write de,is his brother de friend write..@@

then u wan me answer him what??
i terus speechless bar..i wan to believe him..but can I??
i has send him about 3 message,but he dint reply me..
if he dun wan reply then dun reply bar..
i lazy wan to force him to do the thing that he dont like... ='(
haix..izit my fault??
I KNOW ALL WAS MY FAULT.. next time i wont tell him what i'm thinking again,coz he never know my feels.. it's better i release all my sadness to blog..only blog know my feels =( haixxxx..

about 5.40pm he find me..
he say he sleeping just now ><
he sleeo fir the whole day??
dun tell me he dint ever touch his phone?
hmmm..imposibble,i dun believe orhhh =(
haix..then i told him to find me when he good mood ><
coz i lazy wan quarrel with him again..
so tireddddd =(
haix...

then...
about 7something he find me ler..
we talk phone,,
he say i keep diao him and hari2 marah himm...
hmm..i also not sengaja wan marah him bar...just dunno why i cant control my self..><
we talk not really long =(
he say wan play balll...haix..hari hari ball saja =(
BASKET BALL ALREADY REPLACE ME JOR T_____T

today i late eat my dinner,,then
the stupid gatric suddenly came againn...
pain dao...ben lai memang got gatric but not really pain..
but just now..pain dao i cannot walk jor =(

now 9.30pm already =(
suddenly headache...
haix....pain dao,,,
my head macam wan explode jor =(
help me T_______T

REALLY PAIN DAO WANT DIE LIAOOO =(