20 April 2011

hmm..last nite he din reply my message...
but about 11.15pm something he suddenly find me ><
Duh....~~ usually every nite i wait him but he also dint find me..but??
last nite he suddenly find me..dunno why,,
maybe he tough i angry him?
but i memang angry him too...
because he din reply my message,and he din tell me that he go play ball @@

he send me a message and say he eating now..
he ask me later call him @@
but,i dint call coz i lazy sudah,,
i lazy wan quarrel with him..
the more i ngam him the more we will quarrel =(
i know last nite he wont go home early..coz
confirm he will go cyber @@
then i told him that,he wan wat time go hme also can,coz i lazy ngam him already ==
yesterday i dint wait him,because tis fews days i wait dao very tired ler,,
and last last he din find me and reply me @@

today,about 12.40pm he ask me to call him ><
then he told me that he read my blog already..
hmmm..i really got feels happy,because he read my blog..
i really hope that he got change dao..
but should i put hope on him??
i really dunno want how ler,the more i put,the more i scare i will disappointed..

we dint talk dao very long,, =)
i let him sleep..hmmm
the whole day ,,,i'm waiting him to find me..
i really tough he will find me?? and
i really tough he change jor,,but?
he can on9 facebook BUT dint find me.. =(
maybe facebook important then me??
dun tell me that his handphone dun have credit?
it's imposibble,coz yesterday i ngam ngam transfer to him man!! @@
then dun tell me that he go sleep back??
where got people wake up then on9,but dint find his gf??
that means his gf really not important to him @@

then dun tell me that is his friend help him to on9?
haix...please.. i dun like hear he say like that...
i send him a message,but he din reply =(

hmm..maybe i'm not perfect for him?
maybe he need de thing i still cannot give dao him??
hmm..nevermind bar,,i dunno want how to say him lerr...
he wan find jiu find,he dun want find then nevermind..
i also cannot control him..
he wan change or not is up to him..
I JUST dun wan he think that i'm control him =(

And Please!!! I hate Excuse @@

he din reply me,,but he call me...
that time about 6 pm something ler..
he say he at cp,,i dint ask him why he dint find me just now..@@
because i scare we will quarrel again =(
we went to eat at palm square with jason ...
hmmm..when i with him that time i seems feel different @@
i feel dao that we two de relation just like a normal friend =(
i dunno why like that,,izit we two long time dint go out together liao??

i keep feel dao that he seems like dun love me anymore,,
AND treat me like friend?? =( hmmph
and keep feel dao that he got new GF T____T
shit!! i really dunno why i will think dao like that.. =(
sorry if i keep luan luan think =(

last time when we talk to each other i wont sensitive with what he say,,
but?? when just now we talk,i feel very sensitive orhhh =(
that feeling suddenly came..
i really feel so suffer =( die lor me,if like this X.X
i suddenly think that i not match to him..
suddenly feels that i'm the one that keep disturbing his life =(
hmmmph

about 7.50pm like that i send him a message..
i ask him out with me on friday,
for the last,because i wan go study liao..
he say ok to me..hmm i hope that we can out on that day @@
i wan find back the feeling =(

i really wan crazy liao...
i hate my stomach!!
sometimes good ,then sometimes make dao me very hard to breath!!
it keep make dao me like wan vomit and cannot eat much =(
hmm..want really gila jor....
always wan worry about him and fan my stomach again @@
hmmmphh

I really suffer orhhhh T___T