17 april 2011

times pass really fast,,
soon i will start my new life again..
i'm going to study and my life will all change...

i really tired alot already..
today i when to wisma with my maid..
we go there gaigai... =)
after gaigai,i go find ken to talk talk...
hmmm...we talk dao many thing..anyway thanks a lot ken..=)

today morning i din find dear,,
i dunno why i dun have the mood to find him..
maybe i'm tired because of the way he treat me??
about 12 smthng,he find me,,
he ask me to call him,he told me that later he go cp wif jason..><
hmmm..then i ask him fetch me at wisma,,
u know what his answer?
he say dun wan,because many people will follow him @@

haix...cp really near wisma alot man,,,izit very hard to fetch me?
if u say at 1b is imposibble bar,,but?? i just at wisma lor..@@
when i hear he say like that i really sad a lot..
i really disappointed =(
haix....maybe i really not important anymore liao..
i really dunno what is his mind thinking..
maybe no feels to me liao?

then i decide use teksi go back to centre..
then i sms dear and ask him at where..
he say he at suria liao....wan pei jason cut hair ><
hmmm...then i ask him whether tomorrow we got out or not?
he say see 1st... @@
astaga,,need see again de mer?
if he really got miss me,then he will out with me...

i'm wondering izit his friend important then me?
maybe if his friend ask him out,then he sure will out de..
but if me?? he sure say see 1st?
from the 1st time we couple he already like this jor..
maybe i already xi guan liao...but??
this time i really sad alot...
i hate him always say like that,,if wan out,then just say wan out lar bar,, =(
sien de lar... ><

today i ask him a question,
i ask him "izit dear accept me back liao?"
he replied me " dont luan luan think.nw i want concentrate my ball...sorry no care dao bii de feeling"..
hmmm...he say sorry to me??
does he really mean like that?
does he really feels sorry to me??
if yes,then why he want treat me like that?
can he just change because of me??

does he know how suffer i'm??
does he know how hurt i'm??
does he know how much i need him in my life??

he wont know all of this,because the only thing he care now is his ball..
i never angry with him because he decide to choose ball and leave me,,
but??
the only thing i really need is his care...
but he now cant give me..=(

haix,,this thing really make me fan and suffer a lot...
my gastric start to happen again,, =(
maybe realllyyyyy wan die liao lorrrr,because always no mood wan to eat @@
T_____________T

no one know how my feelsssssssss =(

haixxxxxxx........if u can,then

HELP ME!!!