26 april 2011

I'm trying my best to believe it..

Now then i realised everything i should say to him then he will do it..
if i dint say,then he wont do it..
i dont like people treat me like that..
this seems like he never wish to treat me good..
all everything need i say then he will do..
look like i'm forcing him to do the thing he dont like..
I THINK TOO MUCH?
but i'm not =)
i just say the true..

Every nite i also wait for his good9 message..
i know he very late then sleep..
but? does he know i keep wait his message?
i really put too much hope on him..
but every time he also can male me disappointed =(
i really dunno want how to treat him then he will change..
should i keep force him to change?
does he willing to change for me?

i had try my best to change for him..
i had try my best not to control him..
but??
why every way he treat me just the same???
i'm blurr with it..

now was 8.30pm..
i just ngam ngam read finish his ex de blog..
i dunno why i will see dao HER blog..
but i'm curious with HERblog..
then i decide to read it..
i tough i wont think too much..
but after i read HER blog...
i really cannot trust every of my dear de word..
i dunno why..every word of the GIRL write in her blog,i feel so true


SHE wrote : Thank you told me this cut = ')

Boy found the girl has a new romance. Would call her. Told her he wanted to say everything.


"In fact, I've never changed your mind before, the memory of 10 months,
Not saying forget to forget, I'm not the kind of guy,
I do not like to see you and the other boys too close.
If I do not care about you, I will not call you, it will not ask you so many things.
Because still love you, will call you and ask who the boy is. Ask you really love him?
Do you really think I have our memories of 10 months which gave forgot?
Will not, I am not that kind of male students. To now, I still have our photo, our memory.
I want you..: ') "


Thank you, tell me everything. = ')


Boy, in fact, "I" is also very like you.

if you are me,you sure know that SHE saying to my dear right?
IMPOSSIBLE SHE WANT TO WRITE SHUANG KAN?
do you know i got how sad when i saw HER blog?
do you know i got how hurt when i saw it?
do you know how my feeling when i know this thing was true?
do you know i keep lying my self that this wasn't true?
maybe he wont know how i feel..
for him i'm just a normal girl..
nothing special to him..

i feel so stupid when i keep think like that..
because in my heart,i know HE will find HIS EX when u know she got relationship with other guy..
but when i ask him,he told me that he dint contact her..
i had ask him for the 2nd time,but he say he dint call her..
i dunno i should trust him or not...
but say the true i dunno how to believe his word,,
because from the way he treat me....
it really seems like he had decide to betray me and find other..

At 1st i really hope that he told me the true..
and told me that he got find her..but,,
if he really got find her,then why he dont want tell me..??
he also know that i wont angry,but ??
it's better he told me the true than lie me..
he know i hate people lie.. ='(
MAYBE I REALLY THINK TOO MUCH? =(
HAIX....
i hate this problem...

He ask me to call him..
i ask him go play ball..
because i really dont want cry again..
i forcing my self not to cry in the phone again..
i dont want him to know that i cry because of him again..
but...
MY HEART HAD BROKEN INTO MILLION OF PIECES WHEN HE ASK ME TO BELIEVE HIM..
and lastly after close his call,my tears drop from my eyes..
i really cannot force my self to stop crying..
the reason i cry because i still not believing on him.. T____T
my mind keep think that he really got find the girl,
and every of the girl wrote on her blog was true..
i cannot force my self to stop thinking of IT...
CAN I TRUST HIM? =(
SHOULD I?

IF HE SAY HE NEVER FIND THE GIRL,THEN NEVERMIND BAR,,
ONLY HE ,GOD AND THE GIRL KNOWS what had they do..
i'm just the 4th people that dunno every thing..

what i need to do so that i can believe on him?
last time i had promise him that i will trust every of his word..
but this time,i really cannot..
my mind full of sadness =(
i so wish i can trust him one more time,but why i can't?
izit the way he treat me after we break make dao i dont trust him?
i already tahan my self with the way he treat me..
i never told him i that i hate the way the treat me..=(

i dont like the way he treat me!!
he seems never treat me like his GF..
he always wan practice his basketball,,,
GOOD LUCK IN YOU COMPETITION...
but how about me??
i only wan him pei me awhile,,but??
when we talk phone never more then 20 mins..
nevermind,,i dont want to mention it again..just let it pass..


I so wish that now have a people can understand my feeling ='(
maybe till forever never people will know how i feel..