21 April 2011

I really sad alot,,
i tough can tomorrow can out with him,,
but??
he suddenly say cannot ='(
haix...does he know i got how SAD when he say like that??
i want go study liao,,but??
i only want out with him for the last time before i go study pun cannot?? ="(

haix...i ask him out at nite,
but,he say dun want,he wan play ball aiks... =(
sudah pun i memang cannot out at nite,then i wei ler him i wan out at nite,but he dun wan also..
he like this really make me feel that i really not important anymore..
he make me more feels that he dun love me anymore..
if he really dont love me,then why he dont just let me go?

i keep ask him how how how..
and i keep say to him that i wan out with him..but,
but he seems like no feel at all.. ='(
he keep say that i wan study liao,then he say he wan go singapore liao..
hmmp..if he know how to say like this,then why he still dun wan out with me?
haix...
maybe he zhao zhao plan liao dun want out?
i know he need to fetch her sister,but,at nite out with me also cannot??
hmmmp...i really put too much hope on him already....
now i really disappointed alot.... T___T

i really dunno know wan how already..
please,dun treat me like this..
do u know got how suffer i'm?
i just wan to out with you,izit hard??
i tough sunday we can out,but??
he say he need out with family...
izit all was just an excuse??
OMG!!

i hate excuse =(

We talk handphone almost 25min..
he say he tired,want sleep..
then i just let him sleep..hmmm...

i'm waiting him to find me,,
but at last,he din find me too..he din tell me he wake up and dint tell me that he go play ball..
this really prove that i'm not important to him anymore =( haixxx...

what had i done,till he wan treat me like that?
now then i really realised that nothing really last forever!!

now when he wan find me jiu find me bar,if dun wan then no need find me =(
up to him,,he wan how jiu how bar,,
i really dunno that should i put hope on him again?

he told me that he need fetch her sister go tuition from monday till saturday..
hmmm...2pm till 5pm..
i keep think that if he 2pm need fetch his sister,then that means he 1pm something already wake up,but??
why everyday he about 4.30pm or 4.50pm then find me??
what was he doing during, after he finish fetch his sister?
haix..he make me more keep luan luan think..
this really prove that he never think about me..
now then i really realised that i really not important to him in his life..
maybe i just a toy for him..
maybe without me he also can live.. =(

maybe i'm not prefect for you..

maybe i'm just a toy for you,,
maybe i'm disturbing ur life.. hmmm...

sorry if i'm not perfect..
sorry if i cant be a good toy as u needed,,
sorry if i'm disturbing ur life..
i really cannot do much thing for you,,one word to describe me,,
that is USELESS =(

i tough i got this sick, then u will care me more??
but all i had done just useless..
i dunno what are u thinking in your mind..
i dunno whether u still love me or not..
i dunno whether i still important or not..
i dunno whether how long again i can see u..

my sick seems never recover.. =(
i dunno want to eat what medicine again..
i so wish that i can disappear in this world and i wont fan so many thing again =(
haix...


I REALLY WISH TO DISAPPEAR IN THIS WORLD

T_______T

AND FORGOT EVERTHING IN MY MIND =(