HE STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT I WANT FROM YOU.. :')

I say ler so many things..
but at last, he still don't get what i mean..
he only say sorry to me,,
but did he really mean it?
or he just say sorry only?

should i trust every of his word?
hmm..unfortunally, i can't..
every of his words doesn't mean all are true..
even though, he keep say sorry..
he can act nothing every happen in your life..
but me?
i can't,,the memories about him, always appears in my mind..

i told my self to give up and forget him..
i had tried my best don't sms and delete every of his things..
but all is useless,,

the smile in my face,everybody see it,
but the pain inside my heart who see it?
i never felt so much pain..
and yet i still love to the person who is causing it.. :')

he never know right?
HE NEVER KNOW THE PAIN INSIDE MY HEART :')